Monday, Aug. 30, 2004
Changes
I am trying very hard to become a better person. I don’t want to do this for anybody but myself. I hate hearing myself complain about not having many friends and then realize that I don’t invest any time in trying to make relationships work. I am tired of complaining about our financial situation and not doing anything to make a little extra cash and not have to bitch about the fact that we never have enough. I am tired of doing a half ass job of losing weight, only dieting and not exercising. There are many things I have no control of, number one being the fact that I am having a hard time conceiving…I cant control the fact that I am not ovulating and I guess the only thing I can do is work on the things I have control over.
So what am I doing to take control over the things I can work on you ask? For starters I am trying to have better relationships with the people around me, I have calling my sisters more often, and I have been visiting friends and trying to make friends. I will soon start be taking a course at the University once a week. The course is medical insurance billing, which is something I can do part-time from home. I am exercising everyday for at least an hour, I go walking with R and we walk close to 4 miles everyday and my goal is to soon be able to start running instead of walking. As for the conceiving thing, the only thing I can do for now is wait, try to get in shape and not worry too much to the point of killing myself with doubts and worries.
I will keep you updated as things start changing.
r-y-r at 1:58 PM
