Thursday, Aug. 05, 2004
False alarm #257,654
I wonder why no matter how many times you tell yourself not to get your hopes up about something, when it doesn’t go through there is always and unbearable disappointment when what you have been telling yourself is going to happen happens.
I should have gotten my period on July 2, after being two weeks late, I took a home pregnancy test and it came back negative, so I took my cycle of “Provera” (which is supposed to induce my period) and waited for my period to come. That was 15 days ago, which is the waiting period for Provera to work and still no period. So I did the sensible thing, called my Dr. and asked what to do next, he told me to get a blood pregnancy test done. I did that this morning and although I talked to myself over and over, telling myself not to get my hopes up, I still felt like I had been struck in the heart when I called and they told me it was negative.
I called my gyno and scheduled an appointment for Saturday to see what we will do next. R and I were planning putting off starting a family in January, but seeing that I am not ovulating, I am planning on talking to my doctor to see what he recommends be done and tell him I want to have all the tests I need done in order to know why I am not ovulating, because as we all know, you cant get pregnant if you don’t ovulate. I have a feeling that this is going to be a long and painful process and one that I am very afraid to embark on at that.
So, I guess, now I just have to wait until Saturday and see what my options are where we go from here. But right now I am going to go to the bathroom, check myself because I feel as though I may have just gotten my period and then have a good cry.
r-y-r at 10:07 AM
