Thursday, Jul. 01, 2004
Letter to my DH, R
To my dearest R:
I am writing you this letter because I see that most times it is easy for me to tell you what I think is wrong with our relationship, it seems that is the only times you will receive a card or a letter from me without it being your birthday or some sort of anniversary. Yet when I am happy and content with you, I take it for granted and never tell you just how happy you make me.
There are times when you have had a rough day at work and you fall asleep fairly early, I am left watching TV and have to listen to you snore, some people would think this would bother me, yet it is the time when I know everything in my life is the way it should be, it is at this time that I am reminded how much happier I am with you in my life, I am reminded how very much I love you and if I don’t fall asleep hugging you, I have time to remember just how bad, how sad my life was without you being a part of it. As I watch you, I have to smile at the fact that the people who see you on the streets or the people who only see you from time to time don’t get to see the side of you that is so emotional, the part of you that is so funny and caring. I imagine they must think I am married to the most boring and serious person alive, yet I get to see the happy guy, the guy who makes the funny voices and smiles not only with his lips but with his eyes also, I get to see the dimples, I have seen the sentimental, emotional man that gets hurt when I am too honest with him, I get to see the side of the man that shows how very much all of the things that have happened to him have really affected him and yet made him into such a strong man.
I am so grateful that I have found you, you are my best friend, and the one person who I know loves me just for me, the one person who is patient, loving, caring and most of all understanding. You have stuck by me in the good times, the bad times, you have sat with me and tried to understand my temper tantrums and not once have you even suggested that you want to end it or run. You always let me know that you are in this for the long run and you always try to make me feel safe because you know that is something that I have always lacked, that feeling of security is something that was always missing. You understand that it is extremely difficult for me to trust and you wait patiently until I can trust you always.
I have so much to learn from you, in the art of loving and caring whole heartedly without strings and restraints. In the art of making you feel as secure as I do in our relationship.
I want to say I love you, for who you are, for what you have taught me and given me only asking for my love and understanding in return. Thank you for believing in me, for believing in US even when I didn’t know I could believe in it. You are truly the greatest gift that I have been blessed with.
Love you always,
Your princess, B
r-y-r at 10:43 AM
