Friday, Apr. 02, 2004
Boring Routine
It has been bought to my attention that my entries are somewhat boring. I have to agree with the people who have said this. My only excuse is that lately my life has become a big routine and I absolutely hate it. I have no idea when I became the old married wife that has nothing fun to talk about. I used to have so much fun; I was the wild child at my house, never home from Thursday to Sunday. You could always find me somewhere dancing, drinking, playing pool and just enjoying life, now the most exciting thing I have to say about my Saturday nights is how I went over to my parent’s house and played pool and who was eliminated from “Objetivo Fama”, the Puerto Rican version of American Idol.
Now this is always a sore subject for my husband and me, you see, I am a true born Aquarius, some of the traits of my sign are:
LIKES
• Fighting for Causes
• Dreaming and Planning for the Future
• Thinking of the Past
• Good Companions
• Having Fun
DISLIKES
• Full of Air Promises
• Excessive Loneliness
• The Ordinary
• Imitations
I really do dislike Full of Air Promises and the Ordinary, I am bored with my life and I am bored with my marriage. This does not mean that I don’t love my husband; it’s just that I wish that we could do things that are fun and exciting, I want to be able to get home at 6:00 am on a Sunday Morning, after having a night of fun, and I am bored of the movies and basketball games. I want to go to Motels again and have the best sex ever because it’s a paid room, have to get our money’s worth, I am tired of the same thing in sex night after night, I don’t want to change my sex partner, I want to change our sex rhythm. I remember nights of sneaking around just for a couple of minutes of time together and I remember how exciting our sex life used to be, now I can sit and time everything and know exactly when and how things will “go down”. I love the unexpected and my husband hates it, I love night life, my husband loves the bed at night time. I love music and rhythm and happy people, my husband loves for us to be alone.
As many things as we have in common, we have a ton of things that are different and I don’t mind this, but I really wish he would take the time to do the things I like to do. Before I met him I had never set foot in a basketball game, yet I go with him to every local game because I know that he really loves it. I have asked him many times to take salsa lessons with me, yet he doesn’t try. He always asks what he can do to make things different, so I am not bored, but his intentions to make things better never last more than a week. Repeating myself is time consuming and I really hate it. I feel like I am the bad one because I always point out the negatives and he is a true Cancer, he is very emotional and takes everything to heart, so it hurts me to see that I have hurt him.
We are in a rut in our relationship; I really don’t want to picture our life 5 years from now when we have had kids. How boring will our relationship get? We have work to do when it come s to this, I don’t think I can take it much more.
r-y-r at 8:32 AM
