Thursday, Feb. 05, 2004
Things are getting better
Yesterday was better, we did not argue and I tried my best to just relax and let things flow. When he was about to get in the shower I said, “Don’t take too long, we have to talk”. As he got into bed he said, “Ok, let’s talk, what’s on your mind”? I asked him to tell me what he felt I was doing wrong, why were we having these misunderstandings. You see, I know I am the one being a bitch; I just need to hear it from him, because sometimes he wants to pretend I am perfect and we both know very well that I am not. Being made out to not have any hang ups and being perfect is too much pressure for me.
He said, “I don’t know why you are being so grouchy and moody with me, I feel I have done nothing to make you be upset at me. I feel you have changed, you used to love to cuddle and kiss and me romantic, lately I feel that you are distanced and a little cold. Please tell me if I am doing something to cause this, and if its not me, then please tell me what it is. Is it your birth control pill? Does it make you feel this way?
I honestly have no answers to his questions, I can honestly say that he is not the problem, I love him just as much as always and he does nothing but make me feel secure and happy. I did the only thing I could do and that was, say I am was sorry for making him feel bad, letting him know that I will put all of my effort in trying to be less grouchy and more positive. I told him that I loved him and that I am happy just having him by my side.
I just hope that things get better. I often wonder if this happened to other couples that have married recently.
r-y-r at 11:21 AM
